HELLOOOOOOOO! Happy 2,020! It’s not only a new year, it’s a whole new 10 years!
Can I be super honest? I have had a really hard time getting inspired for the new year. I’ve felt very blah about lots of things but especially about blogging… like what do I write? What should my focus be? How can I help people?
If you’ve followed me much at all, you probably saw this coming – due to the lack of consistent blogs posted the last couple months of 2019. I can excuse it as holidays and ‘busy’ and family (which all has merit) … But truly, I think it’s a lack of ‘feeling’ inspired.
But here’s my approach: I won’t condemn myself or judge myself. I recognize the feeling of ‘bleh’ (there’s no other way to describe this feeling) and then I go, “well…what am I going to do now? Do I wait for inspirational FEELINGS to hit? Do I force something I’m not feeling and do what I SHOULD? Do I just write and be real?” Obviously, I chose the third option. smile.
No condemning, no judging, but seeing and feeling and then choosing. Herein is the forward movement. I come and write and be honest and don’t try to force anything. Herein is rest. Just be and know I won’t be here forever. Herein IS the inspiration!
I feel, even AS I write, the inspiration coming… It’s okay to be here. The quiet space of no inspiration is an open ground for seeds to drop in and be fed and watered. Furthermore, in the reality of this space is the timing factor! Maybe my silent lack is perfect timing for the seeds of the new year to be planted and fed and watered. Who knows what beautiful things can be grown in this season?
I sit here. I listen and observe. And I wait…
I am thankful.
One quick side note: One inspiration I HAVE had was Father nudging me. I was just listening to music and felt Him say, "This is your song for the new year." So, I don’t have a word for the new year, haven’t made a resolution, but I have this song. And I like it! Maybe you will get a song! If you do – tell me about it, I’d love to hear!